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Let's go back in time a year ago. This was the period where I was really into Doctor Who.

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I kept talking about the show and obsessing over it; I loved Doctor Who. This was also the time my friend, Justin, also started watching Doctor Who. When I first heard that he was watching and enjoying the show,  I was out raged. I had watched it first, I was a dedicated fan, I was the only one worthy of watching it. He was a newcomer, he doesn't know the lore, he wasn't dedicated, he doesn't even know the name of the actors. I think you can see a pattern forming here.

I think it's an innate human reaction. We like being first in something, to have more experience. For some reason, I think I'm better than everybody because I knew about Slenderman in '09. It's an odd reaction to have. You would think that having friends like something you like would be a good thing, but it isn't. I guess it goes hand-in-hand with selfishness. "You can't like things I like."

I'd like to make a leap of logic here, but maybe it's because the things we like define us. I, as one person out of 6 billion, strive to be unique and different. All of us do. Maybe I'm so protective of things I like because those things define me.